I've been bit...

...By the green bug of envy.

We met Eric & Stacy for dessert on Wednesday night at The Cheesecake Factory. The minute Stacy walked up to us, I just knew. I knew she was pregnant and I'm not sure how I knew, but I knew. I didn't say something because if I was wrong, that would have been horrible. We waited for our table, got seated, ordered dessert, talked about life and our plans and what's going on now, and then, at the very end of the evening, after we'd been hanging out and talking for a couple of hours, Stacy says "Well, when we buy a house we're going to have to move WITH the baby!" And that's when I realized that what I had suspected when she first got there was true. Stacy is pregnant and due at the end of August.

I'm super excited for them....BUT....why must there be a but? BUT....there is.

BUT....I am SUPER jealous!

Ever since Mike and I got married, I've known that kids are in our future. I know that I want to be a mom. I know that I want to start our family. But it's also important to me to buy a house first. It's important to me to bring our kids HOME, and not just to some place that we live. I want to paint and decorate and....nest. I want to nest. And now Stacy & Eric get to do it before us.

So yeah, I'm jealous and excited all at the same time. I know our time will come, but right now is not the time and that makes me sad. I just have to remember that things don't happen in "our time." They happen in His. I just need to learn patience. It really is a gift that some people have. I'm not "some people."